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While talking on the phone with a few of my friends, analyzing the current situation (chaos, loss of work, the difficult period for all) I keep repeating that I wish to hear myself inside.


Do you get it?

The problem is that lately there is a huge stream of negative information. People lose their jobs, they lose their loved ones, they lose comfort and personal freedom. On TV, social media, or even incoming calls, we get a lot of anxiety/fear/despair vibes. And it, as dust sit in our heads, clouding our inner world.

I’ve read somewhere that it is very important to discover the balance of thoughts these days. To give every negative idea a counterweight to a positive thought. In other words - to work with your head.

But I want to go back to that ‘hear myself’ thought again. What does that mean?

This means that the current chaos is a time of personal opportunity. Everything slowed down, but it didn’t stop. Someone moved out, someone went bankrupt, someone discovered a mystical force in themselves to inspire others, someone sewed luxury goods, and now – masks. Everything happens just a little differently and if only we could hear ourselves. If we would listen silently to what the world’s quietest inner ‘I’ is whispering – there would be even more miracles…

The 2008 global crisis.

First of all, we, designers, felt it. I had a few jobs at the time – I lost one, I lost another… But while working I somehow managed to learn Italian, I had some savings, and the inner voice told me the direction – Italy. And I didn’t make a mistake, because without spending more than half a year in Milan I probably would never have gone to Asia 2010. In two years, all crises disappeared, a kind of cleansing started, full of travel, wonderful people, food, and all sorts of experiences (I share it in my book “Touching Mars”

The 2018 personal crisis.

About it sometime later, but only in the format of the book. I thank God every day for being alive.

There are two thoughts in my mind right now: 1. God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and wisdom to know the difference; 2. By overcoming certain things, you will be able to find the strength within that could perhaps one day save someone’s life.

In short, that’s it.

2020’s global crisis.

A friend’s grandmother who experienced poverty/hunger caused by WWII – laughs. It’s warm in the house, the fridge is full of food, TV is in color and the old loved man is still by her side. Is it that bad?? REALLY???

It’s okay.

And, little by little IT’S GETTING BETTER.

And my wishes are still here.

And I’m creating my E-SHOP as a result.

Hey, hey, hey… And you believe you’re going to make it?? (My mind jumps like a little monkey again.)


Maybe some of you will want to buy a piece of me through my designs:

Perhaps a huge photo that will decorate your house and make them meditatively cozier.

Maybe through the fabric, accessory, or some kind of design.

Maybe not. If I won’t try - I will never know.

Because the crisis is here – everything goes a little slower, but it could be beneficial.

It’s coming soon.


P.S. ‘You can’t connect the dots looking forward; you can only connect them looking backward. So you have to trust that the dots will somehow connect in your future. You have to trust in something – your gut, destiny, life, karma, whatever. This approach has never let me down, and it has made all the difference in my life.’ Steve Jobs

Photo by Agne Vei



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